Dear Liam,

I've survived another day, you can't really say lived when your just going through the motions. Today was the first day of real snow, and it came quite late this year.One of the benefits about being depressed is not eating much, maybe that will get me closer to being supermodel skinny, but I doubt it. I've definitely learned my love lesson this time, I though I learned it before but this time my heart is truly surrounded by four walls. The hole in my heart is there and sometimes it burns at the edges. I'm going to see this boy called Andre when I'm in Melbourne, I also met him in Morocco. When I think of him the burning around the hole in my heart seems to subside and I feel a bit better. I was relieved this morning to wake up to thoughts about Andre rather then the pain Alex had left with his bow and arrow. I don't expect anything with Andre, but his slight presence in my life makes me feel better.